The supplication of Grief
In the name of Allah, The Beneficent, the Merciful
O Allah bless Muhammad and his family
I whisper unto You O One Who is present in every place
so that You may hear my call
for surely my sin is excessive
and my shame is less
My Master, O my Master
which of the terrifying states shall I remember
and which of them shall I forget
for if there was nothing except death it would be enough
then what about after death greater and much worse?
My master O my Master
up to when and till when will I say,
I am to blame, again and again,
but then You do not find any truth or loyalty in me?
I call for help and I call for help,
O Allah from desires which have overpowered me
and from the enemy which has pounced on me
and from the world which attracts me
and from the soul that leads towards evil
except that on which my Lord has mercy (12:53)
My master O my master
if You have had mercy on the likes of me then have mercy on me
and if You have accepted from the likes of me then accept from me
O One Who accepts the early morning prayer accept me,
O One who, I still know only good from Him
O One who nourishes me with blessings morning and evening
have mercy on me when I come to You alone,
my glance fixed on You
my actions carried on my neck
When all of creation will withdraw away from me
yes, even my father and mother
and those for whom I worked and struggled
then if You will not have mercy on me who will have mercy on me
who will give me solace from the loneliness of the grave
and who will make me speak when I am alone with my deeds
and when You will ask me about what You know better than me?
Then if I say yes (to my sins) where will be the escape from Your Justice?
And if I say I did not commit it You will say was I not a witness over you?
So (I beseech) Your Forgiveness Your Pardon O my master
before the wearing of the clothes of Hell
Your Forgiveness Your Pardon O my Master
before the Hell and the Fire
Your Forgiveness Your Forgiveness O my Master
before the hands are tied to the necks
O the most Merciful and the best of Forgivers